Weeks after returning to Cape Town following her detention by Israeli authorities, Hajar Kagiso Al-Tha’irah Ahjum Mathee has spoken publicly about the psychological and physical toll of her humanitarian mission to Gaza at the University of the Western Cape (UWC) recently.

The 22-year-old Ottery resident and UWC postgraduate, who is pursuing a Master’s degree in Bioscience, was the only woman among her fellow flotilla activists who took part in the Global Sumud Flotilla, a civilian-led humanitarian initiative that aimed to deliver aid to Gaza.

Fearful experience

Speaking at UWC alongside her mother, Gadija Ahjum, Hajar described the experience as one marked by fear, uncertainty and intimidation after Israeli forces intercepted the flotilla in international waters in May.

“It’s an experience where you are constantly on edge because you never know what is going to happen next,” she said.

The flotilla, carrying humanitarian supplies including baby formula, water and medical aid, was intercepted about 268 kilometres off the Gaza coast.

Activists on board were detained and transported to Israel before later being deported to their home countries following international pressure.

Hajar, one of only six South Africans on the mission and reportedly the youngest activist involved, said many passengers were restrained with cable ties and subjected to harsh treatment while in custody.

Detention

She alleged that soldiers tightened restraints, forced detainees to remain in uncomfortable positions for extended periods and subjected them to psychological intimidation.

“Hearing a soldier say things like, ‘I feel like killing someone today’, really affects you psychologically,” she said.

Hajar also claimed that soldiers tore her headscarf and confiscated the hijabs of several Muslim women during the operation.

Despite the ordeal, she said she has no regrets about participating in the mission.

“Palestinians have been crying out and pleading for assistance for decades while facing oppression. Give me some ointment for my bruises, but I would go again tomorrow,” she said.

Hajar explained that her decision to join the flotilla was motivated by her beliefs and values.

“Every part of my identity was telling me that I needed to stand up for global justice. I couldn’t continue watching the atrocities that are happening. I felt I needed to take a more hands-on approach.”

Homecoming

Her public comments come shortly after an emotional homecoming at Cape Town International Airport, where family members, supporters and members of the public gathered to welcome her and fellow South African activists home.

UWC spokesperson, Gasant Abarder, told People’s Post that the university is one rooted in social justice.

“This kind of activism from our students comes as no surprise to the campus community. It is part of the university’s legacy. 

“The University – as it does with all students – offers 24/7 wellbeing services for all students and staff in distress and it will be no different with Hajar. We are grateful that she is safely back home,” he said.

Her mother, Ahjum, previously described the reunion as overwhelming, saying the family shed tears of joy when Hajar emerged from the airport arrivals hall.

Speaking at UWC, Gadija said she remained proud of her daughter’s courage and conviction.

“When she told us she was going on the flotilla, it was a statement from her side. She didn’t require permission from us as parents,” she said.

“It is that expression of commitment to values such as justice, human dignity, kindness and compassion that I marvel at.”

Although still processing the experience, Hajar says she remains committed to humanitarian causes and raising awareness about the plight of Palestinians.

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